Page 1: "I take a deep breath and hold it in an attempt to relieve some of the pressure that is building in my chest."
Page 20: "They each have an equal role in government; they each feel equally responsible. And it makes them care; it makes them kind. I think that's beautiful."
Page 23: "
What is wrong with you? I shake my head.
Pull it together."
Page 29: "He feels so strong."
Page 32: "So I agree. But I do not change my mind."
Page 35: "I'm your brother.You can tell me anything."
Page 41: "And sometimes, if you want the truth, you have to demand it."
Page 43: "Both of us watch the purification happen, and I wonder if he is thinking what I am: that it would be nice if life worked this way, stripping the dirt from our lives and sending us out into the world clean. But some dirt is destined to linger."
Page 68: "...sometimes, people just want to be happy, even if it's not real."
Page 86: "...taught me an important lesson: how to keep going."
Page 111: "I am sure you can find a way, if you want to. Think about it."
Page 130: "Maybe I should not be so afraid of saying anything, because honesty will make me feel lighter."
Page 151: "I didn't realize that I wore my secrets as armor until they were gone, and now everyone sees me as I really am."
Page 158: "I can't apologize, because I only told the truth, and I can't change the truth into a lie. I can't give excuses."
Page 159: "I wish you trusted me enough to tell me things like that." "I didn't trust him to love me despite the terrible things I had done. I don't trust anyone to do that, but that isn't his problem; it's mine."
Page 241: "This was not an act performed in the heat of passion. It was a calculated act."
Page 265: "I wonder how I seem to them. They must see someone I don't see. Someone capable and strong...someone I can be."
Page 266: "I am whatever I choose to be."
Page 269: "There is always something to learn, always something that is important to understand."
Page 271: "This is what I wanted most to avoid; for my rises and falls to become [his] rises and falls. That's why I can't let him step in to defend me now."
Page 272: "He told me there is a right way to do something, and I needed to figure it out."
Page 283: "...not because they are perfect, but because they are alive. Because they are free."
Page 294: "I forgot how your biases cloud your judgement."
Page 303: "She believes me, she's trying to forgive me, even though it won't be easy."
Page 304: "...she made me feel weak, but now her strength makes me feel like I could be stronger too."
Page 312: "But you would move on, and do what you have to."
Page 313: "I promise."
Page 314: "It's time to put everything in order."
Page 318: "Now there are no reassurances, except that where I go, I go because I choose to."
Page 330: "Something sparks inside me."
Page 335: "She is not reward motivated . Yet she is extremely good at directing her thoughts and actions toward her goals."
Page 345: "She looks fragile, but she is not."
Page 346: "They've made mistakes, of course, but they, like everyone else, are a blend of good and bad, not one or the other." "I feel something shift in my mind, like something that was closed has just opened."
Page 349: "We may both be bad, but there's a huge difference between us--I'm not content with being this way."
Page 364: "I know. I know it's hard. The hardest thing you've had to do."
Page 365: "But you will do it. It doesn't matter if you believe you can or not. You will, because that's who you are."
Page 377: "Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you."
Page 394: "Those aren't the only reasons people do things for you. Sometimes they do them because they love you."
Page 397: "...when he's supposed to be weak, he's strong."
Page 400: "Maybe I was afraid to trust him with something so personal as my devotion. Or afraid that I did not know what it was to love someone. But now I think the scary thing was not saying it before it was almost too late."
Page 409: "They claim all colors, all activities, all virtues, and all flaws as their own." "...that I am finally seeing him as he is, instead of how he is in relation to me."
Page 418: "Cruelty does not make a person dishonest, the same way bravery does not make a person kind."
Page 429: "...where the pursuit of truth is more important than anything else."
Page 430: "And there were some things I didn't know I had until I lost them" "
You have no other choice, I tell myself.
There is no other way."
Page 439: "So we give peace to each other, and cherish it."
Page 448: "There's no reason to keep secrets anymore."
Page 454: "Right after I realized my life was worth living."
Page 504: "Everything we have done, and everything we are about to do."
Page 510: "...but sometimes you decide to trust them."
Page 524: "There is a part of me that understands." "...to take what I had learned and use it to help others."
